come back

Why does he have to be so difficult??? gahhh.. men. I know he still has feelings for me.. I can feel it everytime we are together. Even my mother said when I wasn't looking he would look at me, and then when I would look in that general direction, he would look away.

For those of you who don't know, my heart is taken, and has been for a few years now. Everytime I try a relationship with someone else, fate or some weird coincidence brings me back to him. Our families have been friends since before we were born. Our mothers are best friends.. and we fell in love.. then he told me that he didnt think we were right at that moment in time. Ever since i've felt lost, tired, less driven, and alone. I think he's scared of the future and scared of having real feelings. I felt what love feels like for the first time with him.. and everytime I see him, I remember that feeling. It's increadible. I think he needs to find himself.. find out that he has real feelings, and make a plan. I need him and want him in my life.. hopefully he will someday, come back to me.

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first day blogging

My first blog ever! Blogging must be pretty big cuz I had a hell of a time trying to figure out a name that someone didn't have already! Do people just write their feelings down in a blog? Their opinions? Their issues and just stories about everyday life? That's probably what I'll do. I like keeping a journal so this is kind of like that actaully. Well adios for now! :)