cheerleading.... hmmmm

So i love to dance.. i really do. However i am not looking forward to cheerleading season at all. The girls are so bitchy it's unreal. Why do people have to be so mean? Why can't the world just be a happier place to be in overall. I've been feeling really down lately about everything. I know i shouldnt because i have so much to be happy about.. why am i feeling this way? I just won a state championship.. but i cease to be happy for some reason. i have a few good friends that i know i can trust, i have a great future in violin, i have all my applications done, my family and i are healthy, i just don't know why this feeling of depression has come on me this past month.. i really don't. Can one guy really cause all this? Or is it even him? Am i really that hopelessly romantic that just because im not in love means that my life is horrible? I hope i can at least put on a smile for people so i dont have to explain all this to them. *sigh. Im listening to the romantic, passionate, wanting music of Phantom of the Opera.. this probably isnt helping my mood any lol. Well, until soon, Taylor